The weight of my words you can’t feel it anymore.

feed my nightmares.

Principles of Visual Communications have been occupying much of my time, spending hours staring at vectors and layers, warping and clone-stamping. It hasn’t been a good two-weeks period after that previously hectic one which started when i fell down.yikes.

But anyhow more than usual i am finding myself more vulnerable emotionally and losing the strength i used to have. I question myself if its a lurking problem within me but on second thoughts, i’m actually a wise miser.

i am disappointed by how situation happened the way they did, and the aftermath has been haunting me at home as well as out there. On the other hand condemnation isnt what i swear by so i end up putting myself in weird situations to be normal while appeasing my insecurities. yeah, i’m confused and it sucks.

The moral of the story, the wise becomes the miser.

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DREAMS. freaking me out as random boys decide to feed my nightmares. And they come in sequence . . . . . HAA!

NEPHEW EMRE, SO CUTE!

TARAAAA.

OVERPRICED SINS.

SEE NO TOUCH.

ken & dana designmultiple chains to die for.

the lion sleeps tonight oooOOOOOOOo~~~

tara!

accident come TRUE.

OHMYGOD. like fuck fuck fuck.

just last friday night i thought i was really lucky not to get knocked down by a car crossing the main road across from prataplace to zouk. blame it on the paddlepop rainbow icecream. And since then thoughts of getting into an accident has been flashing through my brain.

but today, accident really came true with this:

fucked man. for rushing down the stairs in heels for a fucking bloody bruise. SO MUCH FOR AVOIDING SLOPES WHEN I CYCLE. with pus oozing out everytime i clean it off, i fucking cant move. now what, no gym? knn.

tara man tough me up.

not a vulture.

right now yes now i am feeling vulnerable. yes right sometimes i hope i’m less sober to comprehend the surroundings and just be the one taken care of. please know how frustrating it is. all of you. irresponsible drinkers should never ever exist and if you are one repent baby because your words hurt me. i am human, not a dancer. it tears me apart like love and of all places we conveniently passed by this place i was pissed with you in the past. i dont want to be responsible for anyone and hello dont bother deciphering jaslynbang’s code. if i get the chance i would choose to disappear and live my life out, somewhere.

and oh, did i mention champagne glass cuts? stop talking to a drunkard.

tara!

BLACK relationSHEEPS

The weekend marked the end of the birthday week, with a great sunny drizzly day over at the Botanic Gardens with lizi shan ash evan and julius. Thanks to Julius for organizing the picnic which was extremely well-planned by guys’ standards. HAHA.

The flame couldnt take the wind so these are my “birthday candles”.

Topshop Gift Card from them!

What’s in store for birthday this year?!

From Chin Pin: teeshirt from modularpeople.com (NICE!)

From Babooziry couple: Royalefam teeshirt! (hehehee!)

From Joanne: circular pendant (simple, me like!)

From Lynnettoh! : graphic leggings (YOU KNOW VERY WELL I’LL WEAR IT.)

LASTLY, From Sisterbang! : 120gb iPod Classic! yayness!!!

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Thanks to all for the Presents and Attendance at the Party and Picnics!

also also, picnic outside Asian Civilization Museum with the Joots!

goodfood along rivervalley!

food, many many!

damngood aglio olio by jeffoobear!

SEE THAT BOY. must have been bitching, AGAIN.

kieran joined us too! funny boy, janisbang carried him over to the rubbish bin and left him there in a paperbag and he came scurrying back in no time!

Well other than the birthday picnics, is had one of the most random birthday week this year.

30th – party@zouk, 3rd – hanabibuffet, 6th – familybuffet, party@dblo, 7th – picnic, 8th – cd shopping, D.night, 14th – picnic

Babooziry couple treated me to Hanabi’s Japanese Buffet that was seriously DOPE. I’d rather die if i cant eat salmon sashimi ever.

TRIO!

As we grow older, birthdays will probably lose its significance. Though many still raise their birthday wishes high up on the pedestal, hopeful that it may come true, somehow life’s not as lucky as it sounds. I’m thankful though, for everyone around me should they be passers-by, friends hanging on strings, closer friends, friends whom can still be your confidant after long periods of hiatus.

It comes a day when all of us grow to realize the complexity of human minds or rather to put in in better words, we have matured to see individuals with multiple perspectives. We see hatred, insecurity, love and that behind most happy facades are trailed with many uncalled-for irritants. If given a choice i would wish to be more naive, perhaps just a tad less of a thinker, so i can see less of them. This can be called a hindrance or blessing but there’s no chance for reversal. Even worse, there is no end to decipher the mind an individual, sometimes, i’m confused about myself! ironically sociologists and psychologists thrive on this.

I learned,  hatred can drive you nuts but be gracious and let live.

Bitch in moderation lest you find yourself, childish. We all bitch to fill conversational gaps and I do too, it makes me LAUGH.

WE SHOULD INVEST IN MIRRORS, so we remember to look at ourselves before over-bitching. hahaha.

I’m enjoying my life, loving my joots, friends and family!

SO GAY.

I’ll be slogging over at StanChart for 3 random days, 16th, 22nd, 23rd.

Off to bed! TARA.

UMBILICAL CORD BLOOD. season one.

Rawrrrrrr! it’s the birthday season again at last!

PRE-BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION : Friday 300509

Just last friday janisbang and friends attempted to spring a birthday celebration surprise for me just right outside zouk. But me being a nosey parker to sneak to the back of the pillar to peek, crushed the supposed anticipation of the party planners. ahhaha.

Anyhows it was a great one and i appreciate sisterbang red lynette and all’s efforts!!! it was darn good chocolate cake!

whahahahah ADJUST!

incredible night with awesome company (:

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INTO THE NIGHT.

retardness and drunkardness.

WHAT CAN WE NOT FORGET?

YES, Bang’s birthday drink 2007-2009.

COSMOPOLITAN!

2009

2008

2007

Once again, the next chapter please!

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CRAZY BUYS BY JANISBANG

No idea why janisbang bought this but it’s quite funny. HAHAAH

GORGEOUS KICKS that are lil tight, arghs

and Baby Jacket for yet-to-be-born nephew Emre!

OFF TO DINN WITH FOLKS….more to come if i’ve got the time laters + sneakpeeks on JEFFOOBEAR’s birthday!

tara!

awesomeness

GROWL! it was my Chinese Birthday yesterday. Well as a tradition i get my meesua and eggs apparently for longevity and don’t-know-what sake. So i told mommy her next chinese birthday, i shall reciprocate and cook her some. hopefully not disappointing with what little cooking skills i have.

uncle found this somewhere. HAHAHAHA I GOT TEETH NOW!

Even though its the hols, days have pretty much been busy somehow, somewhat. Last week was a wasted one, other than that i have been shopping around for friends’ presents thanks to May/June babies being the popular friend choice for me. Wines are the latest options when it comes to presents, handmade stuff yadayada.

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What’s awesome is planning for Jeffoo’s 21st Birthday!

Met up with Jeffoo and Mae in preparation for the upcoming events, Jeffoo and mommychong’s birthdays. Of course, not missing out the catching up and talks about life, anything under the sun.

Visited ArtFriend amusing ourselves with their inventory which are annoyingly overpriced. Then adjourned to the party-gift shops that moved from concourse. It was tcc afters, before i had to scurry off for my meesua, tossing out receipts to write on, brainstorming ideas for the big event.

Later in the day it was Yeazir’s house, resuming our efforts on the invitation cards which took years and hardwork to complete having troubles like borderless printing, permanent markers and hard stencils. But we had fun, checks this out. HAHAHHA.

Riesling for the win!

Guestlist!

kukubirds.

more kukubirds!

edwin loves to mutate himself.

mushroomhead.

AWESOME.

finally became normal again.

yayness.

wash the bras. tara!

lockjawlock

okay for the past few days i’ve been searching for the source of the soreness at the left jaw area of my face. no idea whether it is the fucking wisdom tooth , a jawlock arising from it or i suspect maybe a growth somewhere somehow. it is fucking irritating because it is disrupting my schedule for the week and making me handicapped.

now i’m heading out whatever. and there’s no one to rant to. it doesnt make me any wiser but a suicidal miser. FUCK.

INERTIA MAXIMUM

fine friday evening
refusal to seek medical advice
phlegm-walled throat
two cold tabs
overslept for gym
happy chillings on dusty bed
recuperating to sing tomorrow
sadly skipping fun tonight
too lazy to get out of bed for movie

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